Failure

I was on you tube the other week when i saw the popular author Markus Zuzak he wrote the Book Thief which is amazing and in this video which I will link in this post about failure and how it defined him as a person and how it affected him and it got me thinking about how i deal with Failure and what in my life I have failed at and weather it was a positive  thing in my life and if it made me the person i am today.

It seems to me no likes to fail its a word that can bring fear to a nation if i fail will it be the end of the world No... We need to fail every so often how will we learn if we don't fail. I have failed three times in maths and my car test and my second relationship.
So let me take you back into the past when I was in Primary/Secondary school doing maths I am not going to lie I hated maths i did not get it and it made me very upset I was a very shy child at school so I didn't want to say I needed help with anything I used to sit there silently in tears knowing that I was no good. Now in Primary school I hated mental maths 10 seconds to before the next question I used to get 0/10 every time even though my teacher would help by going slowly I still didn't get the answer right and I got very upset i didn't understand how my class mates could do it but I couldn't fast forward to 2014 and I am currently doing a adult maths course yes I still hate maths but the teacher who i have is amazing and i am now confident with solving problems and i now consider  that I am not a failure in this subject the failure at school has made me more determined to carry on after Level Entry 3 to Level 1 next year i have always had it in the back of my head after GCSEs when i got my U that I would one day revisit this subject and get a qualification in it just to proove to myself that maths and the failure I felt in School would not let me hold me back.
I then Failed my Practical car test twice it affected me badly I had a break from driving I then came back learnt with my mum and passed 3rd time I took that time out to get my head together and now there is no stopping me I have a car and I love it .
March 2014 I have failed in my second relationship but instead of shouting and crying and loosing friends I will learn to see the brighter side yes I am scared but if we don't fail how will we learn that by failing we won't understand the Importance of who we can be and what we can learn and achieve. As Someone with Aspergers the word fail flashes at me like a big Red sign as someone who loves to have her life go from ABand C failure for me is like a car crash were instead from running smoothly and being perfect it goes to ABD but looking back I think I do find new ways to cope with failure its not a bad thing anymore its not a scary word yes people fail but after they fail they pick them selfs up and they brush themselves down and try again.
and to watch my fave Author talk about his failure it says to me not everyone is perfect so now I am going to embrace it and learn and be the best person i can be :)
Thank-you for reading the official first post on The Aspie
Next Week i am going to talk about Anxiety and the ways in which I cope
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A-_8QIdm4hA&feature=youtu.be