OK So If I am going to write a blog about Aspergers I should probably write honestly Truthfully first of all I don't relate to having Aspergers i rather think of myself as a normal 26 year old who just happens to see the world a little bit uniquely to others I am not a Typical Aspie I can talk, walk, Drive ,I have job, can read and I have friends. I am what you call High Functioning that I can function on a level that is comfortable to me I do need help with things being able to understand social norms is tricky I always butt in to conversations as I don't have the ability to know when the natural pause is i tend to talk to much about the mundane things and i often repeat what I have said 5 min ago. I can get very hyper and can sometimes tend to go bit child like when my brain is faced with a very anxious situation. Anyway My first ever inkling that I had Aspergers was in Year 9 at QE me and my friends were reading books for an award and we had to decide who would win I was very lucky to read a really great book by and Author called Mark Haddon Who wrote the Curious incident of the dog in the night time if you have not read the book now is the time to go get a copy and sit down and read. The main chacture had Aspergers traits and when I was reading this book I could relate at the time of reading I only had one Condition and that was Dyspraxia I am also have Type One Diabetes (Aspergers worse nightmare living with diabetes) any way I was not officially diagnosed with Aspergers until i was 23 years old now that is quite a long time but for me a young age because as soon as i got the diagnoses all the doors opened it was like waking up from a nightmare and walking to a better positive future. When i was 11 My world how can I describe it turned upside down. My Parents decided to move back to Dorset and moving house was quite stressful time I was 11 and became very irritable and wetting the bed (trying to expell all those sugars) I did a blood test on my brothers meter and I was sky high and I ended up in Hospital diagnosed with Type 1 i hadn't even started a new school so I was thinking great got another condition i have to explain to potential friends any way years after my diagnoses i rebelled I was very angry at everyone family mostly I was present at school and soon as i got home very angry at everyone I was sneaking sweets and Icing Sugar to my room as i got it in my head i was not aloud sweets and chocolate at all and looking back now I have a feeling that My Aspergers was making me angry and making rules in my head even trying to control the TV in the living room it had to be CBBC when my brothers were watching CITV even though I had a TV in my room this continued when I was 18 years old when I finally came to terms with my Diabetes and I had to find out how to be friends with the Big D anyway it wasn't until i got my first Boyfriend he had Aspergers as well and i will write about Relationships and Aspergers in a future blog post we split up and I was not dealing with the break up like a normal person would I was very erratic taking it out on him and my friends I also got to the point were I was very low at this point and I wanted to end it and I did write what my friends were going to get it felt so surreal in my head i even convinced myself I had Bipolar thank you Google. Anyway I went to my local mental health team and spoke to a phycartirst with my mum and she made an official diagnoses of Aspergers and I was so relived that i could name this thing in my brain. since my diagnoses i have lost friends due to they just do not understand and i was pretty horrible but less so now. I am in a Relationship which i am proud of being able to have a proper relationship and I live on my own with support from my Support worker in my flat which I got from housing. I Still get frustrated but i have ways I can cope with that and i will talk about that in future post I just want to tell my story about living with this how it effects me and how others treat me becuase of it. I hope you enjoy reading this and I will talk to you next week
Rhiannon :)
